Deception is what's making Y.O.U. go round in circles without being able to cross that certain intersection
Manipulation will only get Y.O.U. so far because sadly, Y.O.U. are and will always continue to be plagued by limitation.
This new friend of yours? What's his name?
Discontent you say? Well I must say...A truly amazing character indeed...Notice he doesn't have any reflection in the mirror?
And Finally...
Respect is given where Respect is due. However, the respect Y.O.U. sought from this soldier, will never be commanded by Y.O.U.
Need I really say more?
Need I?
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Woah It's been a long time hasn't it?
Basically 2 reasons why I haven't blogged in quite abit:
1. Too Busy (With work & of course certain situations have come up which require my attention)
2. Too lazy. (Need I say more?)
There's actually so much to say right now, but at times like this I can't help but wonder whether I should really mention everything...So being the indecisive person that I've always been, Let's just see how this post develops k?
Work has been piling up...I would love to say "So many things to do, but so little time"...But if I do say that, then i'll be just lying to myself...Because c'mon let's face it...No matter how hectic things get, it's always up to you to manage your time properly...And sadly, I haven't been able to do that of late (Huge Sigh)...I guess i've just not been focused enough...Giving certain situations precedence over work has not really proved to be such a good idea afterall...But after looking at the big picture, I guess there's only one thing to say...Karthi must always remember the one phrase that Almanzo left him with, "It can't rain all the time"....Food for thought? Well ponder away people...Ponder away...
Oh for those who are wondering who Almanzo is...Well he IS my best friend...Even though he ain't with us anymore due to a freak accident which occured like 7 years ago, I still like to use the term, "IS" instead of "WAS"...Cos I firmly believe that somewhere out there, he's still with us today...Call me sentimental, but hey, aren't we all?
A number of "Firsts" have come up recently as well:
1. Did my FIRST emcee-ing gig for Inspiration Events (It was an Appreciation Dinner...I thought I could have done much better, but all in all, I guess it turned out pretty ok)
2. Was part of FIRST family day (It was a swimming carnival like thingy held at Tropica Condominium..Shit loads of hard work...Certain cock-ups on my part...All resulting in a very tiring saturday leaving Karthi with a pretty painful blister on his left foot, haha)
3. Watched someone take his FIRST steps (I used to think that people often over-reacted over their kids taking their first steps...But after witnessing this for myself, I have to say, It was truly a wonderful experience..Quite hilarious to watch, but wonderful nevertheless...haha)
4. FIRST time finishing a bottle of Martel in less than 15 minutes (That's right, You read it right...15 bloody minutes...All thanks to a certain individual known as Spencer Seah...Otherwise known as my boss! Sheesh...Crazeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee)
Alotta people have been askin me this one question recently, "Karthi, are you happy with where you are right now?"
What was my immediate answer? "I guess so"...For those of you who know me well enough, you guys must probably be going, "That is so typical of Karthi"....hahaha
But after giving it much thought...And if I had to give a definite answer to that question, I'd have to say "Yes"....But of course, there's always a BUT...hahaha....I may be happy now, but I never said I was contented...ahhhhh u see where I'm gettin at?
I mean...think of it this way...Who doesn't want to get the best of what life has to offer? There are infinite possibilities out there...so why limit ourselves to immature happiness when we can reach for the stars and achieve that ONE STATE OF MIND that has eluded us for so long...Content!
Make sense? Well I sure hope it does...If not, my life has been jus one load of crap...
Just the other day, I opened up a side of myself to 2 people whom I've known for less than 3 months...This is a real milestone for me, cos I pride myself on being a closed book whom only few have been fortunate/unfortunate enough to read...But this "opening up" wasn't done overnight of course...I thought long & hard before I did so...I ain't gonna lie, Initally there was a certain sense of fear..."What if their opinion of Karthi changes? What if they don't look at Karthi the same way they use to? What if the friendship just goes downhill from there?"...So many what if-s...But thankfully, the result didn't turn out too bad...In fact, I kindda feel a little better now...At lease, there are now 2 more people I know I can turn to...and I sure as hell am thankful for that!
Whenever we are faced with certain issues, there are 2 levels on which we have to base our actions on:
1. On an Emotional Level
2. On a Practical Level
Emotions can only take us so far...Thus we rely on practicality to make certain decisions...However sometimes, the practical decisions that we make brings us back to an Emotional Level...And when this happens, it just plain sucks...
This really hurts..You have no idea how much this hurts...I really wish there was another way around this, but at this point in time I don't see any other alternative...I blame myself...I should have been more responsible...I shouldn't have gotten you into this...But Now I've gotta fix it...and this is the only way I know how...Maybe you won't even ever need to know...But remember this...I did what I have to do...And I did it all for you...
I'll end with excerpts from this song by Eminem:
"...Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heartAnd you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'er
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?...
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back..."
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